February 2012
For Keeps
Everything has been great.
I’m finally moving out by the end of this month & I really can’t wait to see what else this year has in store for me & him & the rest of my family & friends. I’m on a good high. I love this direction & the way everything is flowing together. It’s almost like its too good to be true but then again it’s not even like that....
January 2012
I want to be that perfect person you see yourself...
This is my biggest down fall.
Burnt
So tired … no days off & of course my minds been on over drive. I need/want a break but I really can’t stop now.
All the little things are driving my crazy. All the put downs & negativity thats floating over my head … I can’t take it. I would love for everyone just to be satisfied. Then again, nothings ever going to be enough for some people. I’m just going...
Negative Response
After telling him the great news … ” Oh well you know it could be that he likes you OR wants something for you. ” Why is it have to be that way? I work very fucking hard & take work serious, because when it comes to MY MONEY it aint no joke. I got places to be & a future I’m tryna fulfill. Don’t hate me because … oh I’m not even going to get...
Finally !
Things are happening the way I want them to. I’m in control. Today got even more great news, my boss is scheduling me an interview already for full time for Business Support. FUCK YES. I’ve never felt so great about everything in a really long time.
Just sayin ...
I always seem to forget why I don’t hang out with certain people.
High
Got good news today, something for me to look forward to even more now. My boss talked to me about the new full time positions that are open now since we are getting more work starting 2013 because 2 sites are closing.
Man … my career.
My mind is so focused on moving forward I feel like I’m losing it.
All I really want to no is that he’s here with me all the way. But I...
A Moment.
Finally a moment of silence & peace. Today’s my day off from BOFA but I go back to work at Justice tonight. I wish I could rest today. I love how things are & where I am in life. I’m finally feeling like I’m my age … kinda lol 22 feeling like I’m 27. It’s ok, I know all of this hard work will pay off in the end. For the past couple days I haven’t...
… Been having dreams that I’m losing you. It’s been an awkward couple of days, I know I love you & maybe it’s just all these new emotions that are getting to me.
To early for this.
Please don’t go.
New Me. New You.
It’s been awhile since I changed things. What a busy life I live now. I actually miss those days where I stayed in bed all day relaxing. Now a days my minds on overdrive & I can not sit still. I feel like I’m wasting time or I could be doing something other than sitting down. Theirs always something to do …
Next months my birthday & honestly I’m not even really...
Saturday Love
” Thank you for coming back into my life … I appreciate you so much. I love you. ” - Alan
… he already knows & I didn’t even have to tell him that all I want is for the person I love to appreciate me. It’s mind boggling how things are between him & I finally. I’ll never get over it. Priceless moments that will never be replaced or forgotten....
+ million
Everythings more personal.
Not my scene … not my scene at all. I have higher standards for myself more than ever & expect only the best & only want the best for me & those around me.
Everything for you & nothing at all … for ….
All drained out & completely exhausted.
I love my job & love my life now. With the way things are going I couldn’t be...
