December 2011
When you know everythings just all wrong.
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He is Home.
Merry Christmas ...
” Welcome to the family. ”
Spent Christmas Eve with him & his family yesterday, had a great time. Today we’re spending time at his house with the other side …
Honestly I’m home sick once again & want to go home to spend Christmas with my family even though they get
on my nerves I miss them a lot. It’s hard being so far away yet so close ? I...
Someone who makes excuses for every little thing will have an excuse for the rest of there life. This bitch is so annoying. It pisses me off that she has the nerve to complain when I’m
over here working my ass of trying to make money … this bitch has it to easy & needs to get smacked in the face.
BedTime
Just about to crawl into bed & cuddle up next to him. Just can’t get this smile off my face … I know where I belong & it’s with him. It honestly makes me sick how in Love I am.
Chit Chat
Me: I told you about how I plan on going back too school next year right? Him: Just don’t be late. Me: … late ? Late for what ?! Him: For dinner.
<3
Me: I want to cook ! Bake, make sushi, pasta ! Him: You don’t like that I cook for you everyday ? Me: I feel bad & it’s not like I don’t know how to cook ! gawwwd. Him: I’ll...
Far from home.
In the last month so much has been happening & changing at the same time. I can’t believe I am where I am now. I never thought my life would go the direction it is going now.
Still trying to battle this mental gymnastics going on in my head … one minute I’m set on my decision but then something happens & it changes my whole train of thought. I’m jumping back &...
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Loving Him.
Back Back Forth & Forth
It’s just one of those days.
One of those weeks.
One of those mornings.
Lately, which is probably like 2 weeks ago was the last time I visited my Uncle. I go there to vent & to ease my mind a little. Even though he’s not here, I know he’s listening up above. Just how God has been listening to me. It’s so weird how I talk about God now the way I do.
I have so much...
Dear God.
Having doubts again … I hate that I do because I really don’t want to have these thoughts in my head. You ever get that feeling when something is wrong ? Randomly I’ll have those feelings on random days.
Like today.
Feeling my feelings & everything that’s going on overwhelms me so much because things are so great I’m scared it’s all going to just...
Communication
The thing I hate most would have to be silence.
Moment for Life
Him: I’m sorry for all the times I hurt you … I know what’s in the past is in the past but I’ve been meaning to tell you this but I just didn’t know when I was going too.
As we laid there & cuddled to watching Family Guy all I could think … what us there to be sorry about ? We’re together now. I wondered what he was apologizing for exactly...
Promise Ring
Feeling a little home sick. Only because I miss my bed, my room, my grandmas cooking. This is a little taste of how it will feel when I do actually move out. I wish I had a car just so it would be easier to get around but unfortunately that’s another thing I will have to save up for.
Feeling so at home with him & his family (auntie & nephew) is everything that I love so much....
Titles
Not knowing who exactly I can share my thoughts with. I feel like I need to gather my feelings & keep on trending along with only myself. I hate that I have self doubt. I hate that I’m always usually unsure or sometimes even unaware of what’s going on.
With new change comes along hard making decisions & choices. What am I suppose to do. I know in my heart what I feel …...
Feeling so complete.
